For 12 years I have severely suffered from being undiagnosed with two forms or anxiety, depression and PTSD. This is my reality; within this book is the raw and real of how my seemingly invisible health issue really feels. Alongside is a small collection of people and places that affected my mental health in a negative way all while leading into some of the things that have supported me within my healing journey. This includes quotes that I read daily, emails I get as constant reminders everyday and of course my snowboards. Those that don’t know me, my name is Raeann (Rae) I am 23 years old. I am from a small town outside of Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. I have struggled for as long as I can remember with the feeling of being suffocated, dragged out of my physical body and so much more. In April of 2022, at 22 years old I was finally diagnosed and have been on Lexapro since my diagnosis. Depending on a medication was not ideal for me, however I learned very quickly how much it actually helps. This series is a look into my life, my reality. This is the story of me; to show that mental health is so much more than it is made out to be.